Mr Stef has a dirty little secret. It's not my place to say and I don't indulge in idle gossip.
You want to know?
Well, you musn't tell anyone. Comprende?
Mr Stef is having an affair.
With two other women.
I'm okay with it. Really...truly I am.
You see it's an emotional affair. You might even say an affair of the heart. It's been going on for a long time.
I've known about it since we got together seven years ago. To be honest it was one of the stipulations of getting involved with him. I had to accept it. It was who he was and there was no way he would end it.
I've come to terms with it. It's taken a lot of time and patience. I won't say that it hasn't bothered me. There's definitely been ups and downs. Times when I didn't think I could go on.
Then Miss E was born, and of course I had to think of her.
I don't know the women that well. I'm only really able to distinguish them by their looks. I don't even want to know their names. I think if I did it would be like acknowledging it's okay? And I know its not.
You want to see them don't you? You want to know what they look like? I can't blame you, I did too. I'm a woman after all, and I needed to know what I was up against.
I've trawled my archives and found photo's. Before you look, please prepare yourself. One of them is taken when the kids were with him and her.
Mr Stef is a Muso. Yes, a musician. He plays brass instruments and its been the bane of my life for some time. Some people are golf widows, I'm a brass instrument widow. His flugel horn and trumpet mean SO much to him. I would even say he gives them more tlc than I get. Hmmph!
So Mr Stef's new pseudonym is.....Music Man. I tossed around a few ideas. Clean freak - he's more of a tidy freak or to-do-list freak though. Music Man just suits him don't you think? Look at him doing his bit for the local Brass band.
This week will be dedicated to the special folks in my life. I'll tell you a little bit about each and every one. Can't promise a dirty little secret on each, but i'll rack my brains!
My family and friends...be afraid. Be very afraid.